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angels & frogs........................................>>>Tuesday, January 27, 2004
“Don’t fool yourself, she was heartache from the moment that you met her.”
- Jeff Buckley
the roads weren’t that bad.
so i try to download some songs to remind me of her. i leave it up to chance, i select every Jeff Buckley song that shows up on the search screen, then walk away from the computer to see what i get. kind of like cable fishing. you ever do that? leave a tape in at night, close your eyes and pick a channel, see what you get the next day? those tapes are more interesting when you don’t have any stations, like right now. you can put in an old tape and see what you caught way back then. watch commercials and news breaks from years ago. reminds me of “The Thing” when those dudes were watching stacks of recorded game shows and the one guy took out the tape and said, i know how this one ends. that showed their isolation more effectively than a hundred aerial shots of snow-covered mountains. anyway, point is i go back later to see what songs downloaded successfully and i only got one. not the one i was looking for either. five times over i got one song. it’s called “Forget Her” and i don’t think it’s on any of his albums. not sure though since i only heard him when she put the disc on in my car. and even though “Last Goodbye” and “Grace” will remind me of her for a long time, of course, it must remind her of something else and on and on and on. see, i don’t need to be hit over the head with a hammer. here i'm thinking "Last Goodbye" is the most appropriate thing i could be fishing for and i get something else. not just something else, i got five versions of this fucking song. for a reason, right? i’ll try listening to it once, right now, to at least get the meaningful quote for up there. and maybe to start doing what it’s telling me to do. i’ll try. it’s easy. i tell people how to do this all this time. just pretend you don’t care and eventually you don’t.
the roads weren’t that bad. even if they were on fire they weren’t that bad.
::: david - 9:07 PM [+] :::
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